So its exam time and i’m a mess right now.

This entire semester has been about me trying to prove to myself that i can basically do as well as other persons around me. And I’ve tried and so far I’ve done really well. But it’s crunch time and i’m freaking out.

Throughout high school life i didn’t really care too much about academics, i always just wanted to scrape a pass and sometimes i couldn’t even be bothered with even trying to pass.

So there’s my dilemma. Having not ever really tried to keep up in school or cared to i now have to grow up like NOW, second year in uni, cuz my first real exam is tomorrow and while i may have studied a bit, i feel absolutely clueless about everything.

So where do i go from here? How does one go about studying? I suppose discipline is a big thing. THE big thing maybe. 

How does one discipline themselves to achieve greatness after starting so late in the game?

I’m scared. like really scared of people saying “Oh that’s the girl that just has talk and doesn’t know how to back it up” 

Second and third year are what really count towards my degree, i really hope i don’t mess this up. 

God help me.

P.S. how does one motivate them self????